Day 44: I Chose This

I am going to risk sounding a little woo-woo today for the sake of what I think is important to share. Read or don’t read…up to you.

The way of a Spiritual Warrior is not one that is often chosen. It is the path less trodden and travelled for a reason…it is hard. It is in your face, it challenges you, it stretches you well beyond your comfort zone, and is about as comfortable as sand in your underwear. Not even the Hokey-Pokey shake can save you on the latter.  Today, for me, was no exception.

Now I do realize that I chose this route; the path to become a spiritual master of sorts – which is really about mastering your “self”. I literally asked for it and now it is happening. This isn’t the first time either, so I know that I will come out the other side changed and for the better; however I will admit that at this moment I feel mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually maxed out from it. Some of you may understand it as the “Dark Night of the Soul”. Either way, my spirit is surely being tested and put through the ringer. Thankfully I have a great network and community of people who truly care and are supportive. There is a part of me that wants to tell you what is going on, but I am not ready to…so you will just have to wait. Honestly, I am scared to. So for now I am going to bid you goodnight so that I am able to recharge and regenerate my batteries and start a new day fresh, and see what tomorrow brings.

Bon nuit!