Day 127: Good Advice From Two Good Guys

You know, I wonder sometimes if I am doing the right thing. I question myself whether this whole challenge is worth it; if holding out is worth the wait. And every time I doubt myself, the Universe sends someone my way to tell me “Yes”, the wait IS worth it, and the right guy will be there at the end of the rainbow. So in this, I have to trust and keep on trucking.

Thankfully I know a little more than I used to, and two months from now I will know a little more than I do today. So when I doubt myself and think “Well, what if I meet someone…and what if they won’t wait?”, then I remind myself that if they were meant for me, then they would understand the importance of what I am creating and encourage and support me in it…cheering me on towards the finish line and welcoming me with open arms on the other side of it. I certainly would do it for someone I loved, and I have…so why would it be so hard to conceive that the opposite be true too?

And then it happened. I received the answer to my question. I had a conversation with two different guy friends of mine on two different days who told me THAT is exactly what they did. They loved, and they waited because they knew the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow would be worth it…and it was. And to hear it coming from a guy’s perspective really changed things for me. To hear it from TWO guys, rather randomly, solidified it.

Fear. Fear is the culprit of the day and of the hour. It is fear who speaks in my weakest moments, casts doubt in my mind, uncertainty in my heart, and wants to settle for the path of least resistance. And I guess, when I find myself here, it is to remember what my two wise friends shared – Love, when it is real, is worth holding out for. And love, when it is true, will still be there at the end of the day. And if it dies before the candle does, then it was never to be in the first place.

“I am not looking for someone I can live with; I am looking for someone I can’t live without.”